For almost a year now,
I've been single. I ended it with Isabelle of two and a half years,
and today, I found something I didn't like.
I noticed this a long time
ago, but until now, I didn't let it bother me. But it seems I just
lied to myself.
This question is mainly
for all the people I have as friends on facebook, but I guess it can
be a general question too.
Lets see if I can explain
this so it makes as much sense to you, as it does me, I've been
misunderstood so many times here already, that I don’t want to make
the same mistake again, so just bear with me here.
One of the reasons I broke
up with Isabelle in the first place, was the fact that she told me
she had no interest in making friends, or getting to know any of my
friends, as she would never move to my town, and because they weren't
her type of people, she may have said it slightly different then
that, its difficult to remember this far down the road. But the
essence of it, was that she showed no interest in my friends what so
ever, even to the point, that she did what she could to not even
allow me to go to any of their parties or other meetings.
She was just not
interested. Period.
I, naturally, didn't like
that. What kind of girlfriend don’t want to get to know their
boyfriends friends? Or meet them? I tried to get to know her friends
and meet them as often as I could, granted, when ever they went to
some concert, I never joined, for two reasons, they cost money, and I
am not a concert person, but everything else, I tried my best to be
there.
Getting to know a loved
ones friends, is to me, the ultimate way to really get to know the
loved one as well, so why would anyone ever not want to do that?
Feels like I'm stalling
the issue here... so lets get back on track.
What has now showed that I
do care, is the fact, that a lot of my friends, even some family,
still have her as friend on facebook.
Now normally, I don’t
care who has who as friends on facebook, why would I? Its their
friends, I do not care.
But what seems to actually
bother me, is my friends and family, being friends with someone I
used to be with, granted, for a long time, but that they never really
knew in the first place, and that they never saw, and that she had no
interest in knowing.
So the question is... why
are they?
Why is she still friends
with them if she never wanted to be anyway? She once told me, late in
the relationship, that she had no friend in this town. Clearly, she
was either lying to herself, or to me, as it now seems she did have
friends here.
Or does she keep them, to
keep an eye on me? Or is that just stupid paranoia? (I hope its
stupid paranoia)
Anyway... keep her as a
friend if you like, I will do what I can to not let it get to me.
But if you were just lazy
and not remove her from the friends list... then for fuck sake...
Cya
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